Friday, May 27, 2011

He speaks.

i was at a bible study last night, and the question was raised:
"how do i hear God? how do i know it's him?"

it had me thinking.
we all need direction. we all need to know that where we are going is "right."
we all need the confirmation that what we are doing is correct,
that our choice was the "right" one.

i believe it's in all of us to long for approval.
like a child always makes sure his father is smiling at him;
like a student always asks her teacher if her assignment is right.

right.
what is the right
way to hear God?
is there one?
or is God more creative than that...

i responded to his question like this:
talk to God like you would with a best friend,
or a wife,
or a husband.
envision him beside you, in front of you, there in the room with you.
give him a face, give him two eyes, and a smile.
imagine it to be a conversation over coffee, or in the kitchen or a sleepover.
you speak.
he listens.
you wait.
he responds.
and often we expect words we can hear,
or dreams.
but sometimes, he chooses to smile,
simply.
and tells you to wait.
because there are times when his responses are not understood
until it is time for them to be understood.
and so he waits
until he knows we are ready to hear them.
and in order to recognize his voice, we just have to speak to him...
often.
trusting he is always listening.
always caring.
always attentive.
and knowing he is in the room
with those eyes
and that smile.

and soon, his voice will have sound -
a sound you will love and recognize -
different from the voice of your own thoughts.

and there will be peace.
peace.
(make sure there is peace)

you will know you've heard him
when you smile back.

you will know it's him
when he speaks to you
in your own style.

like best friends would.


God is creative. not limited to something we may have called
"right"
or "wrong."

when he speaks,
we'll just
know.

be still,
and know
He
is
God.

if you are feeling distant from him,
or struggling to hear him,
be reminded that he always speaks,
but not always in words.

be encouraged.

melody.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

all is meaningless?

there are days - or maybe minutes - when things don't make much sense.
when life just seems like a ridiculous concept.
when what was clear is just blurry.
as if i went blind for a moment.

it's the strangest feeling.
to feel completely lost -
but only for an instant.

i don't like feeling like everything is meaningless.
it's like feeling Emptiness himself.

but what if it all were without meaning?
everything we strive for,
everything we desire,
every dream,
every tear,
every moment we're afraid,
and every moment we're in love.

what if in the end all that matters is one thing
and one thing only?

i carry many dreams with me
and sometimes, my heart becomes overwhelmed by them.

i wonder if we get too caught up with being important and making an impact
sometimes
that we forget to breathe.
that we forget that love is simple.
that we forget to be. and to give.
i forget.

even though He is complex, He is simple.
God is simple.

and we've made Him complicated.
well, at least i have.

i know that my life matters,
and you matter too.

but maybe the idea that there is more to life is not
to add more pressure
but rather relieve us.

because maybe the "more" in life
is simply the "less."

...melody.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

21.

it's that time of the year: looking-back-on-life-because-the-next-day-is-a-new-year-of-life-also-known-as-my-birthday time of the year.

i tend to become very nostalgic on the days before my birthday,
but tonight i am hopeful.

i am hopeful because what this new year of life will bring is beyond what i can imagine.
i am hopeful because i still have so much life to live.

what God has already done with me all these years i cannot even describe.
it is freedom, joy, peace, experiences, new friends.

it is love beyond what i thought it could be.

i have met so many people already - whether it be back home in switzerland, or florida, or montreal. or toronto. or anywhere else in the world.

i am beyond amazed by you who are a part of my life.
you inspire me.

i have learned so much so far, and cannot wait for what i will learn this new year.
there is so much ahead, and i can see it. i can see my dreams before me.

so as i enter into this 22nd year, having lived 21 years already, i'm overly excited for what is to come ahead.
and i thank you for taking part in my journey. you are wonderful beyond compare.
i love you all.

- melody.